Change The World

I used to be so concerned about my bestfriend.

Before, I was never tired of givng her advises.

I listen to her nonsense and with sense thoughts, her problems and secrets.

BUT. . .I was surprised by my sudden rebuffs. .

I noticed myself uttering words like: "Ah, okey."; "Bahala gud ka" ; "Ikaw gud"

whenever she asks for my approval. .

I feel guilty but I cannot blame myself for acting like I don’t care,

because even if I admonish her for a thousand times, it will still be her decision to make.

So I decided to let her learn from her mistakes. . .

since she’s a bit stubborn. . .

Lately, my bestfriend seems to be going through something this time, 

but she don’t feel like sharing it to me. . 

Well, I completely understand.

She’s got lots of friend to share it with. . .

especially those "who really know" the situation. . .

Honestly, I’m also keeping little stuff from her to compensate the issue of secrets.

But slowly it’s building a wall between us. . .

And sadly, I’m not doing something to break the wall.

I just hope we could settle this issue soon. . .  

I have found hope in life. .

Thanks to the priest who preached on yesterday’s mass for Educator’s Day.

I remembered what he said: "Young people of today are afraid, afraid of failures"

. .Hearing that, maybe I was. That’s why I keep on going through with the flow.

That while I’m in harmony with the trend, the more I’m LOOSING MYSELF.

It’s about time that I must heed and know myself better.

I don’t need anybody’s approval for as long as I am right, I know that God will be there for me. .  

This obscure feeling disturbed me,

When his eyes once looked into mine.

My pounding heart left my nerve teased.

My thoughts send shiver in my spine.

 

I should not feel this way for him,

For his a mere quiet stranger.

These fantasies may be my dreams

But just have to be kept under.

 

Though there is no chance to blather,

I’m hoping to know him better.

Friendship might be the only way,

And kindle this feelings at play.

By: Ian Charm Torres